Uptight Hippie

Flower in my hair

This months focus, in order to become a more delightful, happier, person, is to let it go.

(Um, this probably should’ve been my main focus since childhood.............) 

Sometimes some people describe me as a “hippie,” and admittedly, some aspects of my persona are hippie-esk.. Like, I’m a hippie as in I have a heart, peace sign, and flower tattooed on my wrist (love, peace, and a flower in my hair.. for those who don’t know). And I’m a hippie as in I have long hair that I rarely straighten, all natural, baby.* I’m a hippie as in the quotes “drop beats, not bombs,” “make love, not war” and (Marley shout out) “get up, stand up, stand up for your rights...don’t give up the fight” make my insides gurgle with ambition to change the world. 

I am NOT a hippie as in I go with the flow of things. 

If there isn’t a plan... I’m not a fan. 

Bar hopping with friends? Who’s driving? (I hope someone volunteers) Are we cabbing it? (If we do, I hope we run into someone sober who will give us a ride home) Heels or no heels? (HEELS! Heels always win) Dinner out or dinner at home? (dinner at home is cheaper.....) What am I going to have for dinner? What am I going to have for lunch?! What am I going to have for breakfast?!! ...How much money is in my checking account? 

..Don’t think for a second that I haven’t had this exact thought-chain-reaction in my crazy little head!

Every decision in my life, down to what underwear I will wear, is thought out, planned out, figured out. 

I could possibly power a small village with the amount of brain activity I have accumulating from constantly formulating my To Do lists...

Today, driving home from work:

“I have laundry on my bed I have to put away and my bed is still unmade because I was too lazy to both put away my laundry last night, so I slept with it, and to make my bed this morning. I will put my laundry away and then make my bed. Then I will make my lunch for tomorrow before I forget. Then I will shred (Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred. It’s a bitch) but my heel kind of hurts (pervious injury from dance..) so I’ll ice it while I blog (doing it right now!) because it is already the 7th and I haven’t blogged this month...... Then I will shred, or maybe I’ll do yoga? because my foot really hurts... FOCUS on your To Dos... MAKE A PLAN... FIGURE.IT.OUT. ...or you’ll go crazy..”

Or am I crazy because of my To Do list obsession and addiction to planning?

Stay tuned.. -a. 

*Before you start rumors, I do shave my armpits.